Bill (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} bitterlawngnome) wrote,@ 2008-04-24 11:21:00 |
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OK, your basic boring self-in-the-bathroom-mirror shot right? But here's what I am thinking about in relation to this.
This is the bathroom mirror in The Ancestral Home (yes, only one bathroom - I hear the howls of disbelief already). Soon this place will be gone gone gone. Sold, torn apart, reconfigured. But here I am looking at myself in it, one last time, critically. Saggy diabetic-diet-body, stretch marks, and whatnot. Thinking of all those years of looking at myself in this mirror feeling ugly ugly ugly. Too fat too young too tall too poor, bad hair bad skin bad face bad bad bad. In front of this exact same piece of glass. So through the magic bathroom mirror I am sending back to my 14 year old self this image of how I am now, cause at 14 I would have done *anything* to look like this. Call it vain if you like, but we all create ourselves to some extent don't we?
Hey 14, all you have to do is survive another twenty-some-odd years: but now you know that eventually, you will feel OK about how you look. Now go ahead and get back to wanking or stoning or reading or whatever the hell you're doing in here, behind the only door in the house that you can close and not have anyone walk in on you. Oh and BTW. I have a Levis jacket, they have not changed at all in 30 years, except now they are made in a sweatshop in the Philippines instead of a sweatshop in New York.
I don't think I will ever look at another "self-in-the-bathroom-mirror" snapshot on a personal profile the same way again.
